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Got a phone from L, this guy, I have so much mixed feelings to him.
Maybe I am matue enough to tell love and temp love,
We laughed like normal, talked like norml, everything is normal, until i got drunk again.
Man's beast came out again, I was half awake, half drunk.

He asked me to join his MSN list,
should I do it? shouldn't I?
If I have let it go, I should,
If I still care, I should not.
He said I don't seat like girls, it sounds familiar,
many years ago, he said the same to me, I know.
Some part of me still has not changed, I am still the same girl in front of him.
I decide not giving him my msn.

Awaking

he didn't get my msn, maybe he can find out from hotmail page.
I don't want to be the gril on his list.
He said he missed me last night, that didn't mean he loves me.
Walking on the street, thinking that will he hold my hands?
I got the answer, he let my hands go away.
There is a line between us now.
I am his one night stand, although nothing happened,
I am just a body that contains some past love to him.
I don't want to see him again, not like this, not if I will get on his bed.
Will not call him, will not miss him, will take him as another normal guy,
I am ok, I am ok, just don't think about last night that he holded me so thight.
that he kissed me lips,
that it seems we are in love again, like anyone else.
Do not it, if you don't want to pay any love to me.

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